adnevertastedsuchhappinessbefore.Herbeautifulmouth,itwassosoft,sosmall,Igaspedintheagonyofmyhappiness.IfIcouldonlyhavediedthen!
Giulia!Giulia!
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Thecockcrew,andthenightseemedtofadeawayintogreyness.Thefirstlightofdawnbrokethroughthewindows,andIpressedmylovetomyheartinonelastkiss.
'Notyet,'shesaid'Iloveyou.'
IcouldnotspeakIkissedhereyes,hercheeks,herbreasts.
'Don'tgo,'shesaid.
'Mylove!'
AtlastItoremyselfaway,andasIgaveherthelastkissofall,shewhispered,—
'Comesoon.'
AndIreplied,—
'To-night!'
IwalkedthroughthegreystreetsofForli,wonderingatmyhappinessitwastoogreattorealise.ItseemedabsurdthatI,apoor,commonplaceman,shouldbechosenoutforthisecstasyofbliss.Ihadbeenbuffetedabouttheworld,anexile,wanderinghereandthereinsearchofacaptainunderwhomtoserve.Ihadhadlovesbefore,butcommon,grotesquethings—notlikethis,pureandheavenly.WithmyotherlovesIhadoftenfeltacertainuglinessaboutthemtheyhadseemedsordidandvulgarbutthiswassopure,soclean!Shewassosaintlyandinnocent.Oh,itwasgood!AndIlaughedatmyselfforthinkingIwasnotinlovewithher.IhadlovedheralwayswhenitbeganIdidnotknow...andIdidnotcareallthatinterestedmenowwastothinkofmyself,lovingandbeloved.Iwasnotworthyofhershewassogood,sokind,andIapoor,meanwretch.Ifeltheragoddess,andIcouldhavekneltdownandworshippedher.
IwalkedthroughthestreetsofForliwithswingingstepsIbreathedinthemorningair,andfeltsostrong,andwell,andyoung.Everythingwasbeautiful—alllife!Thegreywallsenchantedmethesombrecarvingsofthechurchesthemarketwomen,gailydressed,enteringthetownladenwithbasketsofmany-colouredfruit.Theygavemegreeting,andIansweredwithalaughingheart.Howkindtheywere!Indeed,myheartwassofulloflovethatitwelledoverandcoveredeverythingandeverybody,sothatIfeltastrange,heartykindnesstoallaroundme.Ilovedmankind!