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Chapter 5

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    AtthetimeofLilia’sdeathPhilipHerritonwasjusttwenty-fouryearsofage—indeedthenewsreachedSawstononhisbirthday.Hewasatall,weakly-builtyoungman,whoseclotheshadtobejudiciouslypaddedontheshouldersinordertomakehimpassmuster.Hisfacewasplainratherthannot,andtherewasacuriousmixtureinitofgoodandbad.Hehadafineforeheadandagoodlargenose,andbothobservationandsympathywereinhiseyes.Butbelowthenoseandeyesallwasconfusion,andthosepeoplewhobelievethatdestinyresidesinthemouthandchinshooktheirheadswhentheylookedathim. Philiphimself,asaboy,hadbeenkeenlyconsciousofthesedefects.Sometimeswhenhehadbeenbulliedorhustledaboutatschoolhewouldretiretohiscubicleandexaminehisfeaturesinalooking-glass,andhewouldsighandsay,“Itisaweakface.Ishallnevercarveaplaceformyselfintheworld.”Butasyearswentonhebecameeitherlessself-consciousormoreself-satisfied.Theworld,hefound,madeanicheforhimasitdidforeveryone.Decisionofcharactermightcomelater—orhemighthaveitwithoutknowing.Atalleventshehadgotasenseofbeautyandasenseofhumour,twomostdesirablegifts.Thesenseofbeautydevelopedfirst.Itcausedhimattheageoftwentytowearparti-colouredtiesandasquashyhat,tobelatefordinneronaccountofthesunset,andtocatchartfromBurne-JonestoPraxiteles.Attwenty-twohewenttoItalywithsomecousins,andthereheabsorbedintooneaestheticwholeolive-trees,bluesky,frescoes,countryinns,saints,peasants,mosaics,statues,beggars.HecamebackwiththeairofaprophetwhowouldeitherremodelSawstonorrejectit.Alltheenergiesandenthusiasmsofaratherfriendlesslifehadpassedintothechampionshipofbeauty. Inashorttimeitwasover.NothinghadhappenedeitherinSawstonorwithinhimself.Hehadshockedhalf-a-dozenpeople,squabbledwithhissister,andbickeredwithhismother.Heconcludedthatnothingcouldhappen,notknowingthathumanloveandloveoftruthsometimesconquerwhereloveofbeautyfails. Alittledisenchanted,alittletired,butaestheticallyintact,heresumedhisplacidlife,relyingmoreandmoreonhissecondgift,thegiftofhumour.Ifhecouldnotreformtheworld,hecouldatalleventslaughatit,thusattainingatleastanintellectualsuperiority.Laughter,hereadandbelieved,wasasignofgoodmoralhealth,andhelaughedoncontentedly,tillLilia’smarriagetoppledcontentmentdownforever.Italy,thelandofbeauty,wasruinedforhim.Shehadnopowertochangemenandthingswhodweltinher.She,too,couldproduceavarice,brutality,stupidity—and,whatwasworse,vulgarity.Itwasonhersoilandthroughherinfluencethatasillywomanhadmarriedacad.HehatedGino,thebetrayerofhislife’sideal,andnowthatthesordidtragedyhadcome,itfilledhimwithpangs,notofsympathy,butoffinaldisillusion. ThedisillusionwasconvenientforMrs.Herriton,whosawatryinglittleperiodaheadofher,andwasgladtohaveherfamilyunited. “Arewetogointomourning,doyouthink?”Shealwaysaskedherchildren’sadvicewherepossible. Harrietthoughtthattheyshould.ShehadbeendetestabletoLiliawhileshelived,butshealwaysfeltthatthedeaddeserveattentionandsympathy.“Afterallshehassuffered.Thatletterkeptmeawakefornights.Thewholethingislikeoneofthosehorriblemodernplayswherenooneisin‘theright.’Butifwehavemourning,itwillmeantellingIrma.” “OfcoursewemusttellIrma!”saidPhilip. “Ofcourse,”saidhismother.“ButIthinkwecanstillnottellheraboutLilia’smarriage.”
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