haveincommonoftenwhenwehavebeentalkingandfallenintosilence,ourthoughts,startingfromthesamestandpoint,havetravelledincontrarydirections,andonspeakingagain,wefoundhowwidelytheyhaddiverged.Ihopedtoknowyoutothebottomofyoursoul.Oh,Ihopedthatweshouldbeunited,soastohavebutonesoulbetweenusandyetonthemostcommonplaceoccasion,Icanneverknowyourthoughts.Perhapsitmighthavebeendifferentifwehadhadchildrentheymighthaveformedbetweenusatruerlink,andperhapsinthedelightofthemIshouldhaveforgottenmyimpracticabledreams.Butfatewasagainstus,Icomefromarottenstock.ItiswritteninthebookthattheLeysshoulddepartfromthesightofmen,andreturntotheirmothertheearth,tobeincorporatedwithherandwhoknowsinthefuturewhatmaybeourlot!IliketothinkthatinthecourseofagesImaybethewheatonafertileplain,orthesmokefromafireofbramblesonthecommon.IwishIcouldbeburiedintheopenfields,ratherthaninthegrimcoldnessofachurchyard,sothatImightanticipatethechange,andreturnmorequicklytothelifeofnature.
Believeme,separationwastheonlypossibleoutcome.Ilovedyoutoopassionatelytobecontentwiththecoldregardwhichyougaveme.Oh,ofcourseIwasexacting,andtyrannical,andunkindIcanconfessallmyfaultsnowmyonlyexcuseisthatIwasveryunhappy.ForallthepainIhavecausedyou,Ibegyoutoforgiveme.Wemayaswellpartfriends,andIfreelyforgiveyouforallyouhavemademesuffer.NowIcanaffordalsototellyouhownearIwastonotcarryingoutmyintention.YesterdayandthismorningIscarcelyheldbackmytearsthepartingseemedtoohard,IfeltIcouldnotleaveyou.Ifyouhadaskedmenottogo,ifyouhadevenshownthesmallestsignofregrettingmydeparture,IthinkIshouldhavebrokendown.Yes,Icantellyounow,thatIwouldhavegivenanythingtostay.Alas!Iamsoweak.InthetrainIcriedbitterly.Itisthefirsttimewehavebeenapartsinceourmarriage,thefirsttimethatwehavesleptunderdifferentroofs.But